ROAD TRIP!

Yesterday, I was ferried to Foley, Alabama. While is was amazing, it was also a trip of hidden realizations both of myself and in general.

I bought a watch. Actually, I bought two watches...one for me and one for Mom. They're both cute and Fossil and fit perfectly. We got in the truck, a little later than planned, to go eat at Lambert's, and immediately, I began to worry because we weren't on time. "They surely will be too busy." "They won't be accepting any more guests." "It will be waaaaaaaaay to long to wiat even though we drove hours to eat here." I was worried...to say the least.

I realized we don't afford the time to do what is most important to us. Instead, we slump around doing everything we know isn't worth the TIME....just because it "has to be done." Instead of worrying about the time, I should have been focused on the fact that I got to spend even more time talking with my parents...something that's rare in a house filled with 11...about to be 12, children and infants.

Yet, we do nothing to change that habit we've somehow formed of doing the mundane. We continue our roads to afford us comfort and peace in our minds...knowing we are getting things checked off the ever so important long list....only to add MORE things to that list.

I realized that I, for the past YEARS have been on this road needing to do everything on my list. But recently, I was overwhelmed by the fact that the list wasn't being cut down even though I was actively fighting to get that to happen. Yesterday, I saw that even though I will always have a million and one things to do, and not near enough time to do it in, I DO have control of what I do in the time I'm given. I have to CHOOSE to fill it with the important things...time doesn't control itself.

There will always be a list...but now, I'll make sure to include something that's important to me everyday on that list to remind myself that, unless I fill some TIME with important things, the TIME will be filled with something else.

When I was little, somehow I got the saying, "You can never do nothing." Nothing is...well nothing. It is a concept, an idea, at best. If you set out to do "nothing", you will certaintly face failure. So instead of saying, "I am not going to do a thing today," I say, "I am going to relax today." It gives me what I need, relaxation, along with my crazy insane human nature of always needing to check something off. Best of both worlds, as a certain famous Disney star sings.

Some might call this crazy that I schedule relaxation. All the same, I do. Maybe I am crazy...

Out of time for this now :) Gotta run pick up my Granny.

Hope this makes a little sense!

J