Well, the man of my dreams hasn't been in my dreams lately. In light of nearly all of my friends being married, engaged, or dating, my heart sighs and remembers I am fearfully and wonderfully made by the Creator. One day, a certain guy will steal my breath and make me giggle (take THAT, Mr. Man In My Dreams...you did NOT make me giggle!).
One day, I won't view couples kissing as vomit-inducing. {I HATE pda!}
One day, I won't roll my eyes in the movies when the award-winning kiss is shown {Seriously, who gives awards for THAT?!}.
One day, I won't shudder when I see a girl giggling at a guy doing some stupid something or other. {And I won't view the something or other as stupid either...I'll be all "That's so cute...giggle!"} I think I just threw up a little in my mouth. Shudder.
One day, I'll understand why it is women feel the need to spend mass amounts of money on a stupid wedding day {The day won't be stupid to me either...but you probably guessed that.}
When the above happens, feel free to remind me of this post. :)
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
I'm just going to jump right in and see what we get.
These last 6 months have been so hard. Filled with trials. Filled with heartache.
These last 6 months have been the most proving of my entire life. Trying to prove that I had staying power. Proving that I didn't have any staying power on my own. Proving God is in control. Proving He has my life and my being in His hand completely and fully capable of wrapping me in His love, care, grace, mercy, and forgiveness.
Nothing happens over night. I get that. Many nights, I went to bed with my heart literally shouting to God, "There is no way I can make it on my own. I am fixing to collapse. Please hold me up!"
And there were many mornings when I realized that God IS holding me up.
And now, I realize that if everything had happened on my time (OVERNIGHT, maybe?!), or the time I thought would be perfect for certain events, my life would be ridiculously unhappy.
Sure, I would have rathered graduate YESTERDAY instead of a year and a half, but I am still thankful that I didn't. That I haven't graduated.
Who knows what's up ahead? I surely don't. Yesterday, I thought FOR SURE, I'd be in bed by now, but God had different plans, and here I am. Writing a blog. At 2:19 a.m. In this moment, I am tired. In this moment, I want to erase everything and go to sleep.
BUT. In this moment, I will choose to publish what's on my heart. Because tomorrow, it might make all the difference in the world.
--J
These last 6 months have been so hard. Filled with trials. Filled with heartache.
These last 6 months have been the most proving of my entire life. Trying to prove that I had staying power. Proving that I didn't have any staying power on my own. Proving God is in control. Proving He has my life and my being in His hand completely and fully capable of wrapping me in His love, care, grace, mercy, and forgiveness.
Nothing happens over night. I get that. Many nights, I went to bed with my heart literally shouting to God, "There is no way I can make it on my own. I am fixing to collapse. Please hold me up!"
And there were many mornings when I realized that God IS holding me up.
And now, I realize that if everything had happened on my time (OVERNIGHT, maybe?!), or the time I thought would be perfect for certain events, my life would be ridiculously unhappy.
Sure, I would have rathered graduate YESTERDAY instead of a year and a half, but I am still thankful that I didn't. That I haven't graduated.
Who knows what's up ahead? I surely don't. Yesterday, I thought FOR SURE, I'd be in bed by now, but God had different plans, and here I am. Writing a blog. At 2:19 a.m. In this moment, I am tired. In this moment, I want to erase everything and go to sleep.
BUT. In this moment, I will choose to publish what's on my heart. Because tomorrow, it might make all the difference in the world.
--J
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