So I sob....

Sometimes, all I can say in prayer is, "Dear God." That's it. I can pray no further than those simple words. My world is crashing, and I can't get anything but that out in front of a torrent of tears of frustration and cries of disgust.

Hiccupping my sobs and yelling anything but words. Just sounds. Sobs and sounds that could rend any sane person speechless.

I put off thinking about things. I hate crying in front of people, so I'm always alone when I decide to confront the mounting wave fixing to crash over me that I've tried so hard to run from.

I am frustrated beyond compare. I can't think past it anymore. I can't put off feeling anymore. I have to face it, and when I look at the big wave that is about to crash, I can only gasp and say, "Dear God," and then sob.

Sob because I can't do very much. Sob because I could change the world. Sob because I was right. Sob because I was so very wrong. I sob for all these things and so much more in a single moment.

It's like laundry. I let the issues pile up until they're a tsunami. Then, I actually wonder why it is I can't stop the sobbing before it ever starts.

(Now, I feel like I'm describing a depressed person. But I think if we were truthful, we've all sobbed at some point in our life.)

My point is, when I reach the end and can't cry anymore tears, more words come.

What are those words, you ask? "Forgive me."